It's amazing how much can change within a year. My heart, my perspective, my life. My last year was characterized by a spiritual restlessness that went beyond simply wanting a new job or new environment or a general physical change - I wanted to see my calling take flight, no matter where or what that meant. Observing where I was at the beginning of my 20th year and now, a fresh 21st year - the Lord has been gentle, patient, and faithful in His probings of my heart. So many new lessons, so many new revelations. And these are just a few.
I can say, with my whole heart, that Jesus is the love of my life. Not in a cheesy, Jesus-is-my-boyfriend single girl way. I have tasted and seen His goodness and care for me, and my heart can't help but swell with delight and joy that I have found a security and rest in an eternal love that will never run dry. Just yesterday, I locked my keys in my car. Checked the doors - all locked. Checked my pockets - nothing. Went back inside and checked the Starbucks counter - not there. Came back out to the car and checked the doors again - one door in the back was suddenly unlocked. He sees, He knows, He cares. And I get to be a partaker in this beautiful life that is resplendent with His grace and glory and love.
Prayer changes the game. Every time. Dare to take risks in your prayer life, speaking dreams and desires that you never dared say aloud, but being assured that they are safe in the hands of an all-knowing God. At the beginning of my 20th year, an impossible desire took root in my heart and now - at the beginning of my 21st year - I am living it out. [Disclaimer: Make sure you move in the direction of your prayer. It's one thing to pray surrender - a whole different thing to live in the reality of surrender. It's one thing to pray destiny - a radically different thing to live it out. The saying "Dreams don't work unless you do"? - that applies to your prayer life as well.]
When God gives you a desire, He is the validation of that desire. Not your friends and family's response, not your physical circumstances, not even when the conditions for that desire to be successful seem to be slipping away. I'm currently journeying through this truth, so this is all I know at the moment. I'll let you know the results once the theory has been tested.
Lastly, the Kingdom of God does not operate on a scale of better or worst, but through higher and deeper intimacy with the Father. So often, we look at pastors or worship leaders or just general Super Christians through the lens of comparison; why are they so far ahead, why are they better than me, how do they get all these opportunities when they've only been saved for 2 years and I've been saved for 12? Comparison is the thief of joy; stay in your own lane, worry about your own heart towards God, and simply lose yourself in your love for Him and His love for you. Only good things can and will follow.
A month into this new year. I have no clue what is going to happen, but He does and all His works are marvelous.
He is good, and good to me.
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